What they don't tell about growing up, into adulthood

 

Hope, it's a word that everyone has heard, but after a while, it start's to feel overrated, over used, and then after a while, it starts to lose it's meaning, after having so many heart breaks, so many disappointments, getting your hopes up over and over again, trying your hardest, when something seems to always fall apart. 

The sad thing, is realizing that after a while, the older you get, the less the people in your life, actually care, or want to hear about your problems, and then eventually you stop believing people when they say, "you can always talk to me", or "I'm here for you.", it's hard to believe that, whenever you do try to talk to people about how you truly feel, you can just see it on there face, they zone out, not really listening to you anymore, and then after a while, whenever anyone asks how your doing, you just silently nod your head and say that your fine, because after a while, you know deep down, that they really don't want to hear about your problems, they don't have time, they have there own life, there own problems to deal with. 

No one really prepares you for how, the older you get, the more isolated you will feel and become, so unless you find a partner, your pretty much screwed, sure, you'll have friends, people you'll meet at work, or at school, but by the time your 25-30 years old, you'll slowly realize, that no one has time to actually hang out anymore, and any time you do get to spend with anyone will be a miracle at best, nothing more, it's not like it was in high school, where you could just call up your friends whenever you wanted too, nope, your pretty much on your own in a way, or unless you have a romantic partner.

I'm saying all this, because I honestly had no idea, in my naive mind, I figured the friends that I would make in middle school and high school, that I'd be friends with them forever, but after high school, as the years slipped by, I slowly started to notice, that the amount of times, that I would get to talk to old friends from high school became less and less over the years. And with me being busy taking care of mom, and working all the time, I barely had any time for myself, let alone time to hang out with friends from high school.

I honestly don't know what point I'm trying to make with all of this, maybe I'm just talking to myself, or maybe someone who read this, will relate in some way, who knows, all I know is this, I wish someone could have prepared me better for adulthood.