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Been reflecting a lot on my life as a whole on and off for the past year or so, thinking of my life, friends that I made, life events, experiences I had, people who I wasn't close with, people who were just acquaintances, to my experiences with getting jobs and getting work experience, to trying to go to college, to so much more.
Life is crazy, complicated, and it's sure not simple and straight forward all the time, I remember when I was little growing up, thinking that life was like a straight arrow, that all you had to do, was plan out your life, from college, career, to what partner you'll have, and the rest falls in place, and then like magic, you don't have to worry about anything. When in reality, it couldn't be farther from the truth. In the real world, life is messy, uncertain, and unpredictable. No matter how much you think you know how life will be, you can never be certain.
Take for example, the job I did, in the moment, when I was working as a CNA, I honestly thought that I was going to go to nursing school, I thought I was going to become a nurse, and continue to work in healthcare for the rest of my life, and then life happened. My body finally broke down from the years I spent working as a CNA, lifting people over and over again, and finally I realized that I had to quite working as a CNA, for good. I simply couldn't keep working, with the amount of physical pain that I was in. Did I think I was going to quit? No. My point is that life is unexpected, and unpredictable, and it's not always so straightforward.
It basically applies to anything, and everything, from jobs, friends, to even where your living, anything can change, even what school you go to. Speaking of which, I remember, when I was in high school, I seriously thought that I was going to go to college after I graduated high school. I mean, I took a fast program to get certified to be a CNA, but it was years before I even attempted to go to community college, when I enrolled myself to the community college, I got the book, walked around getting familiar with the layout. I was planning on going to get certified in Phlebotomy, EKG, and Dialysis, I had to take anatomy and physiology and guess what, I barely passed. I stopped going after I finished anatomy and physiology, first reason was because, my mom needed me at home, and the second reason was because the course was simply too overwhelming. I basically had panic attacks while I was just taking that one course.
Like I said, life is unexpected, and unpredictable, and it's not always as straightforward as it seems. <3
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