Long story short, I had a hysterectomy about a year ago, the aftermath of the surgery, I couldn't describe the pain I felt, it honestly felt like I was going through the pains of having a child, without actually having one.
The recovery, was a long, agonizing process, I pretty much was stuck in bed, resting, sleeping, going to the bathroom, was unbearable, every time I would go to the bathroom, it took everything in me to not scream.
Litterly right after I woke up, I was told that I was infertile, and couldn't have kids, then given the underhanded joke that I could still do it with someone without worrying about pregnancy.
When I looked up information online about the recovery process of the hysterectomy, most answers were saying that I would recover within a few months, no,it took me a whole year to recover, and that's not even covering the ordeal I had to go through, grieving and accepting that I could never have kids, ever.Yes I know that now we have feminism, but the expectation is still there, to get married and have kids.
No one talks about it, I frankly have given up looking for any answers on reddit, and as for being infirtle, no one really talks about how heartbreaking it is, and that after a certain point people just expect you to get over it and be fine, when deep down it litterly kills you, and the fact that every time you go outside, its a constant reminder of what you will never have.
It still hits me, knowing that I can't have kids, ever, I understand why most women who have gone through this don't talk about it, it's because it's taboo, by default your expected as a woman to bear children, in societies eyes, that's how it's always been.
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