My thoughts on the movie, Odd Girl Out

 

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Just finished watching the movie, Odd Girl Out, it's an old movie, it came out in 2005, when I first saw it, when I was younger, it was aired on the Lifetime Network. I've seen it easily over five times already throughout the years, because to me, it's one of the few movies I've seen the tackled bullying, and cyber bullying in a realistic, and mature way. To me, anyone can watch it, kids, and parents, both sides can relate to it from different angles.

For me, even to this day, years later, I personally relate to it, because I myself was bullied when I was in middle school, it wasn't online, mine mainly in person, so for me, I related a lot with the main character, and what she went through and felt, even to this day, when I rewatch it. 

Yes, the movie had some minor flaws, but to me, it was an overall good movie, that addressed bullying, and how it can start off as something small, and soon escalate into something much worse fairly quickly. It basically showed how the school handled bullying at the time, the mother of the daughter, the people who were bullying the girl, and the main character herself, who was being bullied. The overall message, was basically to not run away from your problems, but to face them, and yes, while that message is very well intended, my personal opinion, when it comes to being bullied, sometimes, "running away", or as I'd put it, starting over somewhere else, is the better option. 

It's just my opinion, but to me, it would have been better, if the girl, who was being bullied, got pulled out of school, and just been home schooled, or just transferred to a different school, and started over, that way she wouldn't have to deal with the girls who were bullying her everyday. Her mom basically didn't even consider pulling her out of the school, or transferring her to a different school, or moving, that way she could move on, and start over. By the time, she finally even considered pulling her daughter out of the school, for the remainder of the school year, I'm sorry to say this, her daughter attempted suicide. It shouldn't have gotten to that point, for the school to finally take it seriously, of the girl being bullied, and the mom finally considering pulling her daughter out of school. I understand, that for the whole message of, "standing up for yourself", it was basically needed for the main character to be forced to stay in the school, so at the end of the movie, she would have her moment of standing up to her bullies, I get that, but in real life, it doesn't always work out like that. 

They took so long to finally acknowledge and try to address the problem, of the girl getting bullied, that she was close to dying, from attempting suicide, for me, that's the only real complaint I have with the movie. Yes, it was nice, seeing her stand up for herself at the end of the movie, basically telling the bullies off, but in my honest opinion, all of the crap that happened could have been avoided, by just pulling her out from the beginning of the movie, when the bullying started, and just home schooled her for the rest of the school year, or simply moved to a different town, and start over in a new school. Maybe I might be coming off as rude, but to me, it would have been better, if things were handled much differently, when it came to addressing the girl being bullied at all. 

Those are my thoughts of the movie, Odd Girl Out, thank you for taking the time, reading my blog article on this. Have a wonderful day. 

My thoughts lately🤔

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I don't know how I'm going to start this off, I guess it will be just saying what's on my mind. Been starting to watch old movies again, which is nice, brings back some good memories, as well as some bad. I've also been posting some videos on Tik Tok lately, at least I'm trying to give it a shot. Been watching videos about different religions, and the history about them, and history in general. 

Saw a video about the Mayans, and it brought back memories of when I used to research stuff about that, a lot when I was little growing up, along with the Lost City of Atlantis, I'm also remembering that I was crazy about astronomy, the stars, planets, and different galaxies. Sounds crazy, but learning, and researching about different cultures, or astronomy was always something that I enjoyed doing. Along with biographies about people that I liked, or was interested in. For a while, I was interested in Marylin Monroe, watched movies about her, and even read books about her life, and how she grew up, for me, it was interesting and fun learning more about her. 

I recently got baptized Orthodox Christian, sounds random, but I decided to research and learn about other different religions, the history of them, similarities and differences that they have. 

Started watching anime films again here and there, I don't watch anime all the time like I used to, but it's nice to watch anime films from time to time, since I still love anime, the art style, and the characters, and plots, and how they are portrayed within anime. One thing that I've always loved about anime, is how expressive the emotions of the characters are shown, it makes it way easier to understand what they are feeling, or thinking. At least for me, it takes a lot of the guess work out of it. 

Weather it's Youtube, Tik Tok, or even just looking something up on Google, now with the internet, you can basically teach yourself anything that you want to, which to me, is beyond amazing. For so long, I would beat myself, because I didn't go to college, sure I took a course to get a certified to be a nurses aid, but I never went to college for 4 years, I tried to go back to school to get certificates for phlebotomy, and ekg, but I only finished the prerequisite class, medical terminology. I stopped after that, because I didn't have time, with working and taking care of my mom. And to be completely honest, I didn't want to go into debt, with how much it would have cost me to take the classes, when we were already hurting for money at the time, I didn't want to make things worse, when my mom was already sick, and basically just getting worse.

Anyways, with the internet, from my point of view, it can be used to learn, almost like your going to college but for free. When I was growing up, going to college, was almost like the end all be all, it was supposed to be a way for you to have a better life, but from what I've seen and heard, it's left so many people in more and more debt basically, and you can't get rid of college debt, yet almost any other type of debt, you can get rid off and taken off your record. That was honestly one of the main things I considered when going to college, and when I found that out within the past few years, I was actually glad that I didn't go to college, it would have just added more unneeded problems into my plate, that I frankly didn't need. College was supposed to make your life better, not worse. And with that, I basically decided that I'll teach myself things that I want to learn, and things that I need to learn, and not go into debt while learning. 

Maybe I'm acting childish, or cray to some, but to me, you shouldn't have to go into debt, basically going broke, by just trying to get an education. In my opinion, an education, is a basic human right that anyone should have access too. 

Ironically, I've learned more on Tik Tok, when it came to myself, and how my mind works, then anywhere else. By listening to people's stories, or advice from professionals, it helped click everything into place much faster for me, I know it probably sounds nuts, but I'm just being honest. I guess, that's one of the reasons I blog, and share my experiences, that way, hopefully it can help someone out there as well. 

I'm personally hoping that with the access to information for people who were in special ed, or were in my case, that maybe it will help them, like it has been helping me, not just for education, but for living in general. Regardless if it's dyslexia, dysgraphia, adhd, autism or anything else, for people who are living with those conditions, any information out there, that could potentially help them, is better than nothing. I hope that in the past few years, that things have gotten better in the education system, when it comes to all of this, because when I was in school, at least from what I experienced, the help that was offered, wasn't that great, in my opinion. I know it's not the teachers fault, that a lot of it had to do with the school board, and the protocols when it came to special ed, and learning disabilities.

I guess my point with all of this, is that education should be easily accessible to anyone, and there should be more guidelines, help for the kids who are in special ed. Like I don't know, maybe for the kids who are in special ed, maybe once or twice a week, check up on the kid, ask the parents how they are doing, have monthly assessments instead once every 6 months, that way if the child is struggling with homework, or with the classes in general. That way, the child won't be falling so far behind. Perhaps give the parents tips and advice on how to help their child at home, or things that can help give them more structure. For kids who even aren't in special ed, but who are simply struggling to stay in college, or in just go at all, college, shouldn't cost an arm and a leg to go, I honestly don't know how, but something needs to change. 

Hopefully some of what I said made sense. Thank you for taking the time, to read my post. 

Who am I....

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Been doing a lot of thinking today, of my life, my past, memories, of my hopes, and dreams, of what I wanted to do with my life, way back when in I was in high school. Ya, I know, by 31, you'd think, I'd have everything figured out, well, lets just say, that things didn't go to how I planned them out to be. Life happened, like I said in my last blog post, things changed, and I ended up working as a CNA, and taking care of my mom. I guess over time, I forced myself to forget what I actually wanted to do with my life, when it came to a job, occupation, or as I would call it, a career.

I remember when I was in middle school, for a while I wanted to make video games, then a few years later in high school, I was interested in drawing, particularly drawing for making manga, and anime characters, then after high school, for a short while, I was considering voice acting, basically I was interested in something, where I could explore my creative side, I just wasn't sure of what avenue to pursue. And so, as the yeas went on, I basically forced myself to give up things that I actually wanted to do, and settled into working as a CNA, and finally after a few years, I started enjoying and loving working as a CNA.

But after so long, working as a CNA, and at the same time, taking care of my mom, part of me wanted to do with my life, that was mine alone, I guess for me that thing was drawing, that was what made me happy, gave me peace, my own little happy place, something that I did all on my own, not for anyone else but me. Maybe I'm being selfish for saying all of this, maybe I'm being ungrateful, I actually enjoyed taking care of the elderly, and my mom, but I also wanted to do something for myself, not just constantly caring for others. I wanted to help others, but in a way that wouldn't be so taxing on me, and part of me hoped that it would have to do with art, but I had no idea how to use art to help others, while also doing something that I enjoy. Hopefully that makes sense. 

I don't know where I'm going with all this, but I'm just trying to find my place in the world, something I enjoy doing with my life, that could actually help other people as well. I don't know what it will be, but hopefully one day I'll find something I truly enjoy.