In the Wake of Regret: Echoes of Hope Unveiled in 'The Whale

 The Whale 

I just finished watching "The Whale" starring Brendan Fraser. It tells the heartbreaking story of a man who struggles with obesity and other health complications, you soon realize he has a strained relationship with his daughter, along with his ex-wife, it also shows that his only friend is a nurse who comes by his house to check up on him. Soon a guy stops by from a church to his house repeatedly, saying he wants to help Charlie the main character. 

At first, you wonder why Charlie refuses to go to the hospital to get help, but about halfway through the film, you realize that Charlie knows that he's dying, it's only a matter of time. He tries to reconnect with his daughter, Ellie, which at first she resists because he left her and her mom when she was 8 years old for a man he fell in love with. He finally gets around to asking his daughter how her mom is doing (his ex-wife), Ellie finally tells him that her mom drinks a lot. Later, he checks on Ellie's Facebook, and he soon realizes that she has no friends and that she's very lonely.  You basically realize that both his daughter and his ex-wife are hurting and suffering from him leaving him all those years ago. 

It also shows Charlie teaching an online class for writing, that he doesn't show his face to his students, and that he cares deeply for his students and helps them with writing and encourages them to be honest with their work. At one point, his daughter Ellie comes by, telling him how she's failing her classes, and her teacher tells her that if she does very well in one of her classes, she might be able to pass the class. He then offers to help her with her homework and leave her all of the money that he has, in her writing class, essentially he ends up writing her papers for her, in return he asks her to write something for him in a notebook he gives her. Later he checks on the notebook he gave Ellie to write in, and he sees that she only wrote three sentences in the notebook. He tells her later to try to write more in the notebook for him, which she scoffs and ignores his request, she then keeps pestering and asking him to finish her papers, and by the end of the film though, when he gives her, her papers back, she is very disappointed. 

As for the friend who's a nurse, named Liz, towards the middle of the film, you see how she feels conflicted for trying to take care of Charlie, and how she keeps feeding him unhealthy food, despite knowing how bad his health is. Basically, Charlie's health is so bad, that both Liz and Charlie know that he's probably going to pass away within the week. At one point, Charlie's ex-wife comes over to visit, and confronts Charlie in front of his daughter, saying that she knows that plans to leave Ellie all of his money. Liz gets mad and storms out, realizing that Charlie wasn't leaving anything to her, his ex-wife then screams at their daughter, pushing her out of the house. His ex-wife Mary, tells him how their daughter is "evil", he doesn't believe her, she then opens his laptop, and shows him what Ellie posted about him, instead of him being hurt, he is amused of how honest she was, about how she felt about her father. It shows that Charlie values honesty from people, of how he wasn't offended by what his daughter said about him.

At one point Charlie and Liz were talking, and he basically says that he believes that there's good in everyone and that he has hope for people, while Liz thinks that no one can save anyone, showing how Liz view's on life are more cynical, while Charlie view's life with more hope. With his ex-wife Mary you realize that she doesn't mean no harm, but that she's tried her best with raising her daughter Ellie, and that in some way she and Charlie still care for each other even though they aren't together anymore. It also shows how Mary feels just as hurt as Ellie for Charlie leaving all those years ago, and that his decision left a huge impact on both their lives, yet when you look at it from Charlie's point of view, he left Mary and Ellie because he fell in love with a man, and he just wanted to be happy with him. Yet towards the end of the film, he acknowledges that his decision hurt both Mary and Ellie and that what he did was wrong, he tells Ellie at the end of the film, that he's sorry for what he did, and that he wishes he could have been a part of her life, and that she's the best thing he ever did. He then asks Ellie to read an essay she wrote called, "The Whale" by the time she's done reading it, it's implied by then, that Charlie has passed away. 

In conclusion, "The Whale" leaves viewers with a strong reminder of the power of empathy and the enduring resilience of the human spirit. Through Charlie's journey, we are reminded that even in the face of immeasurable odds, redemption and healing are always within reach.

Despite how heartbreaking this film is, this was one of the best films that I have ever seen, I wouldn't highly recommend it to anyone. I give the film a 10/10! 

Unraveling Miller's Girl: A Disappointing Dive into Teen Infatuation

 

Yesterday I finally watched the movie, Miller's Girl. I heard about the movie a few months ago, saw people leaving reviews on Youtube, basically saying how bad the movie was, I figured, "ok it can't be that bad." Oh boy was I wrong, it was MUCH worse than I anticipated.

To start off, the monologues, jesus christ, it literally felt like they just had the monologues where just there to fill up empty space, and it didn't feel like a teen girl talking at all, it felt like someone that would have been in college taking complex literacy classes, not some girl that's just about to graduate high school. So the fact that the monologues and how she spoke in general didn't fit her age, threw me off right away.

The premise starts off with the main character Cario Sweet meeting her literary teacher Janathan Miller, basically showing right away her infatuation for him, telling him that she's read all his books. It shows within the first ten minutes that Janathan Miller used to be an author, or a failed author, with no novels of his picking up at all, so the fact that Cario Sweet read all his work, and already shows admiration for him, obviously rubs his ego. 

Things basically quickly escalate when Janathan Miller starts giving Cario Sweet specail treatment, inviting her to a poetry reading, then gradually spends more and more time together outside of class, eventually Janathan Miller offers Cario Sweet a midterm assignment based on her favorite author, she chooses him, and writes a provocative peice based on him, a few days pass, and Janathan Miller refuses her peice, saying that it's inappropriate, and to redo the assignment and to pick a different author. She accuses him of leading her on, making her think there was something between them, he tells her he's sorry, and that she misunderstood the whole situation. 

After Mr. Miller rejects Cario's advances, she soon reports him to the principal, the principal then talks to both of them separately, the principal then tells Mr. Miller that it doesn't look good for him, and he is then suspended from his job, Cario then plans to take him on, in front of the school board. 

At the ending of the film, it's basically implied that things have fallen apart completley with Mr. Miller and his wife, and he has possipossibly lost his job, and the ending is left up to interpretation. In my opinion though, the ending felt flat, and the movie was supposed to be an erotic thriller, besides one scene, of Cario's peice that she wrote, there wasn't anything sexual about the movie, and apparently the movie was also supposed to be a comedy, I didn't really find anything funny about the film at all. Yes the film had two other characters, Coach Fillmore, and Cario's friend Winnie Black, but they weren't in the movie that much, and when they were it just felt like filler, like Cario's monologues, I understand they needed some more characters, but they didn't serve anything to the plot of the movie. Mr. Miller's wife Beatrice June Harper felt to have more weight to the movie then the other two side characters. 

I honestly wouldn't recommend this movie at all, it was the longest 90 minutes of my life that I spent watching it, the movie Posin Ivy starry Drew Berrymore is a much better erotic thriller then Miller's Girl. Those are my thoughts on the movie, Miller's Girl.

Reconnect and Rejoice: Rediscovering Childhood Joys Through Nostalgic Video Games and Anime thanks to the wonders of the Internet

Been thinking back on video games that I grew up with, stuff like Tony Hawk, Xenosaga, Jet Set Radio Future, Dead or Alive, hell even anime shows I grew up watching, Wolf's Rain, Cowboy Bepop, Death Note, .hack//SIGN, Naruto, Hell Girl, Witch Hunter Robin, Ghost in the Shell, and so many more. Made me realize how much time actually passed, but when I actually stop to look back on the games and anime I grew up with, it literally feels like yesterday, as cheesy as that sounds, I'm being 100% honest.

I know it sounds childish, but so many of those games and anime shows, not only did I grow up with them, but in some ways it felt like they were raising me, becoming the mentors, friends, and siblings I never had, and yes some I had crushes on briefly. Most of the characters I held onto dearly, literally helped me keep going or gave me motivation during times of my life when I needed it.

Looking back on everything, in some ways, it feels like yesterday, even though it's been years, and in other ways over 20 years ago... When I first realized how much time actually has gone by, it hurt like hell, but I realized that thanks to technology, I can rewatch the shows, replay the games, and watch gameplays on games as well, so it's not like I can never see the characters I grew up with again, but in another sense, it's painfully clear that the childlike wonder I had, it's gone, I'll never be able to enjoy the shows and games the way I did when I first experienced them growing up. I'm sure it's possible to get the childlike wonder back, but it takes a lot of willpower to hold onto it. 

Now thanks to technology and the internet you can rewatch gameplay of the games you grew up with, and replay the games yourself, including rewatching all the old shows you grew up with too, so in a way, you can always revisit your childhood, or create a brand new one. It's all up to you, whether you keep the child inside of you alive and reconnect with your childhood.